You claim that you love me - well really you don't even claim to anymore, it's just a foregone conclusion I'm meant to assume. But you have found it so easy to turn your back on me. I'm supposed to believe that you're concerned for me and that your concern is rooted in love for me. Well let me tell you, none of this feels like concern or love. It feels like conditional love. When I do what you want me to do, you supposedly love me. When I do something you disagree with, you withdraw your love and turn your back on me. The irony is that you push me even farther away by doing that.
To be honest, I really don't buy that you love me. I haven't bought it for a long time. I'm not stupid. You certainly haven't shown it. There were times I needed you, and you know how I hate to ask. But I did. You were too busy. Busy with your life, busy judging me.... You don't even know me anymore. So it's almost laughable now to see you turn your back on me, because it's really only a notch up from what you were doing before.
I will never try to convince someone to love me or support me. And why should I? It's insanity. It's insulting. And the jig is up.
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