The blessings God has poured over me lately are truly overwhelming. I'm humbled and cautiously optimistic. It's not lost on me how long I waited, hoped, and prayed for change in my life. That long and often painful period of waiting created fertile ground for new opportunities to take root. God always knows what He's doing, and He does it in His perfect timing.
Some significant changes occurred at work that brought disappointment and enormous stress my way. My body responded by developing mono four times in 14 months, letting me know it was depleted and needed a respite. It took a long time and many rejections and dead ends for me to find a new opportunity that matched my skills, interests, and income needs as a single parent.
But the moment I read the job description, I said, "This is what I've been looking for." As I traveled that path, I saw signs of validation and confirmation repeatedly, until there was no doubt in my mind that this was my next best step. Now, almost two months in to my new position, I'm thrilled to be a part of such a talented group of sterling people. I'm able to apply my skills and contribute to an industry that really matters and works to bring life change in positive ways.
Continually, I feel humbled and grateful that God put this opportunity in my path and gave me the tremendous courage it took to leave a company I'd been with for over 14 years. It was a huge leap of faith that could have ended in any number of ways, and I'd be lying if I said it didn't terrify me. It's been a huge blow to my ego to go from being so heavily relied upon to having to rely so much on others. But it's yielded growth and strength at the same time, and it's been worth it and hopefully will continue to be.
At almost exactly the same time I resigned my former position, a man I'd known on the fringes for a couple years (and admired from afar), stepped out of the shadows. I've been single for several years, having been heartbroken in as many ways as you could imagine and even more. I just felt that my time and chance for romance had passed. As much as I felt lonely at times, it just didn't seem to ever be worth it. I guarded my heart and had accepted that I would remain alone. I had found peace and contentment in my solitude.
Opening myself to the possibility of romance at the same time I was going through a huge life change with my career seemed ill-fated. I don't deal well with major change and find my bearings by clinging close to what is familiar and reliable to me. At the same time, I found I couldn't slam this door shut.
This man has brought such happiness and laughter into my life, and has reignited my hope in ways I thought no one ever could. He is good to me, and he is good for me. We have slowly but continually been getting to know each other and he has shown such acceptance and support toward me, it is truly humbling.
Only God knows where I will be in a month or a year from now. But at this precise moment, I stand at a mountaintop, having spent far too long deep in a valley. I feel liberated and hopeful. Truly, my cup runneth over.
