I Wasn't There

I wasn't there, but I imagine that she was quiet, absorbing the image of her lovies strewn across the room in restless slumber.  Even if she had the strength to speak, she chose not to disturb them just to meet her needs and desires.  She stared out the window until she wasn't sure if she'd been dozing or straight staring all along.  She felt frightened and brave all at once, a certain sense of resignation rising up her heart.  She felt her body slowing, yielding to a place of peace, warmth, and light.  She glimpsed a fawn wandering in the garden outside her window.  A weak smile crept across her beautiful face as she said hello just before she said goodbye.

Figuring out Forgiveness

Life is hard and it's messy.  It's rarely easy to figure out, even when you're actively trying.  All of us, at one time or another, make mistakes.  All of us have to seek forgiveness and decide whether to give forgiveness.  If you're a Christian, forgiveness is part and parcel of your belief system.  It isn't an option.  The only option is whether to reconcile or give a second chance to someone.

 

Trust is a difficult thing, whether you're just getting to know someone or are giving them another chance to earn your trust.  When you connect with another human, you run the risk of being hurt.  Others risk the chance that you will hurt them.  There is no magic formula.  There are no guarantees.  Good, Christian people fall from grace at times and make poor decisions that hurt others.  Lost souls do the same.

 

Only God can cast our sins deep into the sea and move past them with pure, unconditional forgiveness.  The rest of us remember.  We long to protect ourselves from hurt, and often times that means casting people out of our lives, as a surefire remedy to prevent them hurting us again.  At the same time, we erase the possibility of working through to a better connection and moving past the hurt.  We each walk in our own shoes and determine how to respond to the events around us.  We each deal with the consequences of our decisions. 

 

And so we struggle with this thing called life as we all crave human connection and belonging.